There's beauty in the breakdown... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Being, Wanting, Knowing Who I Am... is yet to be determined. I am just being. I am so many more things than I ever thought that I could be. I once wrote about the things that I felt were my very soul, but they have changed somewhat. I am someone who just wants to make someone happy. I am someone who lives in a little country town surrounded by her family and someone that enjoys every single second of it. I am someone who has seen the world and fell in love with Paris on one of her many journeys. I am someone that loves to write poetry in her black leather journal for no one else to see. I am someone who follows politics because it interests her to know what is going on in this brilliant world around her. I am someone who believes in faith and hope and love and dreams and others. I am someone who relishes her time in a hammock on a lazy Sunday afternoon while sketching and listening to really good music. I am nothing more than myself because I can't think of anything better to be. What I Want... is a vast collection of my deepest thoughts. I want to fall in love and stay that way for the rest of my days. I want to be a good mother. I want to surround myself with really great people. I want to make breakfast on Sunday mornings and make love all afternoon. I want to go to Paris again with someone that I love. I want to teach people to read. I want to raise money for the National Kidney Foundation. I want to marry a musician. I want to travel to Ireland to meet the family that doesn't know that I exist. I want to sail in a real sailboat. I want to read books by my fireplace with hot cocoa in the middle of the winter by candelight. I want to make snow angels on Christmas Day for the rest of my life. I want to recognize signs. I want to act on my feelings and impulses and desires. I want to live my life every single day to the fullest. And What I Know... seems to be what makes me a source for so many people. I know that my rules are guidelines that I live my own life by. I know that family is the most important thing after Fatih and followed closely by friends. I know that there is someone out there for everyone, whether you find them in next door or across the ocean. I know that you have to give love a fighting chance. I know that there is nothing better than a really long walk in the rain when you are falling in love with someone. I know that a rose is not always just a rose. I know that laughing often will make your body stronger, your mind clearer, your heart happier, and your soul more free. I know that education is not always an indication of wisdom. I know that the right words can change someone's life in an instance, and you can fall in love with someone through their words. I know that running toward a dream is always a good thing. I know that this is my soul's connection to you. How can you lose your song when you've sung it so long? How can you forget your dance when that dance is all you've ever had? It must be true. You can't seperate the two. ("Salt" - Lizz Wright) 1:43 AM - 08.04.04 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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