There's beauty in the breakdown... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Strike that Match, Light the Flame, Let it Burn A few nights ago, I saw a falling star again. I remembered the last time that I saw a falling star. It was just a week or two ago, a time when I was having a really hard time dealing with everything. And in those moments, I drew strength from someone that I never thought would be there to lend support to me. I should have known better. You have constantly been there for me in the past 18 months as I have dealt with some of the darkest moments in my life. When I look at others, I realize that my shortfalls are nothing compared to those of others. My hard times cannot even begin to meet those of so many people. However, living in the world that I do, they are my own hard times, and I have had to deal with them. Having you with me has made that all the little bit easier. You have given me so much, and I have no way of thanking you enough. You have been a friend to me when I have been angry and hurtful toward you. You have made me feel insecure when I felt like I could never be enough. You made me see beauty inside myself and made me feel that it was okay to be comfortable in my own skin. You have given me so much goodness that I could never put into the right words. You have made my life undeniably better. And now I ask, what have I done for you? Have I done anything? I feel as though that I have not given you what you so deserve. And I don't feel like either of us have given this what it so deserves. Twice in five months will not cut it, and you know this. The way that this is going--it just can't. I don't want to be scared of you. I don't want to listen to that same song over and over again. I want this to stop... ...So it stops here. I have to change it, but I can't change it alone. I need you to help me change it. We have God on our side, we just need to take action. I know that now. All it takes is a spark, so tonight, I strike that match. My only hope is that you light the flame, and by the grace of God, I hope that it will shine bright for all of eternity. We all need a little light in our lives. Pick the pieces up for one more try. Then we remember how much we need each other. ("Then We Remember" - Alabama) 8:20 PM - 01.20.04 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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